You’re sitting at your desk, and you know it’s time to go. You’ve said that to yourself over a million times, but this time you know, for sure, is real. You’re tired… you’re just so very tired. You’re parents pissed you off, like school wasn’t bad enough today. You go to get the rope, or the knife, or the gun or whatever you choose to use because you’re that desperate. You’re ready. You think of it as some game… the first one dead is the one who wins. No ones home, it’s the perfect time. You’re ready. If you don’t do it, you’re gonna look down on yourself even more forever. You’re just going to hate yourself even more. No one knows, no one will know… until tomorrow. Instead of getting a paper and a pen, you get the video camera out, along with a chair. You’re standing on the chair. You decided to go with the rope… you’re gone instantly and there will be no noise. One side of the rope is tied to the top of your fan and the other is already around your neck. You’re in tears, you know it’s for real this time. You turn on the video camera and just stare at the red light blinking upon your eyes. You start to mumble out a few words. “Mom and dad, I’m sorry. I don’t know why I’m sorry, but I’m sorry. I can’t do this anymore. Please don’t blame yourself, please. I love you both, and tell my siblings the same. I’ll see you all soon.” You say sorry to your best friend because you know you won’t be there for him anymore when he needs you more than ever. You say sorry to everyone you could think of… even yourself. You’re sorry for not being strong anymore. You’re sorry for breaking down. You’re sorry for putting them through so much pain in their life. You stare, once again, at the red light blinking upon your eyes. One foot is off the chair now as you begin to mouth the word goodbye. You have the remote control to turn off the camera in your hand. You clicked the off button and as soon as you see that light go off, you go off. Both feet are now off the chair… the chair is on the floor… the room is filled with silence. You’re dead. You’re gone. There is no going back. Everything is over. You don’t have to live in pain anymore… but everyone else will. What are your parents going to think? What about your little brother, or little sister? What are they going to do? You’re gone. You’re dead. There is no going back. You ended your life because the person of your dreams only thinks of you as friends. You ended your life because that one teacher was harder on you than anyone else in the class because she knows you’re the only one that is going somewhere in life. Your parents are home. They call your name telling you their home, just like they normally do when they get home…. but something’s different. You don’t answer. They get worried… you always answer. They come upstairs thinking your sleeping or showering. Your mom opens your bedroom door and screams at the top of her lungs. She instantly passes out. Now your little brother comes up after her. He screams “DADDY HELP!!!!” He runs over to you hitting your leg begging you to wake up. “WAKE UP, WAKE UP. PLEASE STOP WAKE UP”. But you don’t answer, you’re not waking up. You’re gone. You’re dead. There is no going back. Your dad comes running upstairs and all he could do is stare. He watches his baby girl swing back and forth on a rope. He sees the video camera and he sees the chair. But he doesn’t move. He’s stiff as a board. He cries…. Your dad NEVER cries. He picks up the phone and calls 911. He can barely get the words “My daughter committed suicide” out of his mouth. Your little sister stares at your dad. Your dad hangs up and your little sister jumps into your dad’s arms, crying harder than ever. She’s too young to understand completely, but she knows you’re gone. You’re dead. There is no going back. Everything is over. The cops finally arrive. They push your dad and sister out of your room and sit them in the living room. They take your body down off the ropes and lay you on the stretcher. They cover your body and out you go… just like that. You’re gone. You’re dead. There’s no going back. Nothing is the same. Two weeks have passed and your mom still stares out the window more than half of the day. Your little sister still hasn’t returned to school. Your dad is forced to go to work so he can pay all the bills for your wake and funeral. Eventually, they found to strength to go into your room. Your door hasn’t been open for months. The rope is still laying on the floor and the video camera is still sitting on the table. They don’t even dare to watch the video, it will never be seen. They slowly pick up the rope and throw it in the garbage. Chills run up their spine, your mom basically in tears. They brush off your bed, making it neat… like they used to do every morning after you went to school. Your bed was made and your room was clean. They shut the door, and it remained shut. Your school is still in distress. You thought no one cared and you thought no one noticed you. The girl that said no to being your lab partner, yeah she cuts every single night now because she thinks it’s her fault you died. The boy that tripped you by accident and didn’t say sorry, yeah he’s in suicidal therapy 5 days a week in a hospital because he feels a smile could of saved your life and he didn’t give that to you. The teacher that was hard on you that day, she quit her job because she felt she wasn’t suited to teach anymore. You’re gone. You’re dead. There’s no going back. 4 years have passed. Your little sister is now 15 years old. She started a club in her school dedicated to you. “Secrets” is what he calls it. The club is formed for kids to speak their hearts, without anyone judging them. They can say anything they want to, and talk about anything they needed to. If they were suicidal, they always had someone. That was your problem. You didn’t want to talk to anyone. You had everything bottled up inside of you. You acted as if you were the happiest kid on the planet and you had the perfect life. You played that character so well that even you started to believe it. You would be so “happy” and as soon as you layed in bed at night, the thoughts came back. A little fight between you and your parents could have set you off. But with everything inside of you bottled up for years, it hit your limits. You’re gone. You’re dead. There’s no going back. Your room will never be occupied. Your mom still cries every single night. Your dad isn’t as strong as he used to be. Your little sister will never grow up with you by her side moving her in the right direction. Your best friend is still torn up. Your school now has a club dedicated to you so teens will not make the same mistake you did. Your life was precious and you took it away in the blink of an eye. All you needed was a smile, that’s all you needed. But since you’re gone, just know people cared. People always have cared. You were just way too upset to see that. You were just too caught up in the fact that you thought no one cared… when the truth was, more people cared about you that you ever thought they would. Your town will never be the same. A girl is gone, a special girl who thought no one cared. Everyone cared. I promise you. They care, they always have cared. We loved you, and no matter what, we will still always love you.

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feelingdropsofjupiter:

You cannot read this and not reblog this.

^agreed

god bless

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sophiestyles:

POSTER GIVEAWAY!

I have decided on doing another giveaway. This time I will be giving away ALL of my One Direction posters as it is time to get rid of them, blah blah blah.

I have in total about 100 posters, most of which are not featured in this photo. Sorry for the rubbish photo…
I will also throw in some 1D merchandise if you don’t already have it.

RULES:
•MUST BE FOLLOWING ME.
•MAX OF 100 REBLOGS PP.
•NO LIKES.
•NO REBLOGGING ON BEHALF OF SOMEONE ELSE.
•I WILL SHIP TO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD.
•I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY LOSS OR DAMAGE OF GIVEAWAY PRIZE.
•GIVEAWAY CLOSES ON 1st APRIL 2012.
•I WILL THEN PRIVATELY INBOX THE WINNER WHO WILL BE CHOSEN BY A RANDOM WORD GENERATOR.
Please stay to the rules.
Happy Reblogging!
Please inbox me if you have any questions…
Sophie :) xxxx

breadinhotchocolate:

Mockingjay-pin poster (SIGNED BY JOSH HUTCHERSON) giveaway!

Okay so some of you may know that I had the extreme privilege of attending Josh’s Journey 2 premiere red carpet in Melbourne last week, and he very graciously signed some stuff for me, including this poster, which I have decided to give away! The poster is the on-fire Mockingjay pin, and Josh has signed it in the flames in the top right corner of the pin (he’s signed his name ‘Josh H’ and then written “Peeta” next to it which is just so goddamn adorable I can’t). The poster is the one from the recent edition of Empire magazine, so it’s on (the reasonably thin) magazine paper, and is approx. 40 x 55 cm (which, according to my converter, is about 16 x 22 inches). It also needs a small disclaimer: the poster isn’t brand new. I got it for Christmas and had it hanging on my wall for a couple of weeks, and then took it down for the premiere. It’s still in near-perfect condition, there’s just a small tear in the top right-hand corner from the blu-tac, and a small smudge on the bottom of Josh’s signature, but they’re both barely noticeable - hopefully that doesn’t make a difference, but I just thought I’d let you know anyway. So, here are the rules:

• You don’t have to be following me (although that would be nice!)
• You need to have your ask box open/be easily contactable
• You can reblog this no more than 3 times, and likes don’t count
• I will ship anywhere in the world (well since I live in Australia, it is highly likely I will need to ship overseas hahaha!) and will pay for shipping
• The winner will be reaped (by random.org) on February 11th, Australian time

MAY THE ODDS BE EVER IN YOUR FAVOUR!

thalass0phil0us:

so i cleaned up my room today and found quite a few posters that i don’t really want anymore. i managed to collect olot back in the day when i was a hardcore short stack fangirl lolololol.

anyway i have:

• 3 x A3 size short stack posters
• 2 x A4 size short stack posters
• 1 x magazine article of short stack from dolly or girlfriend (i can’t remember)
• 1 x the small poster in the tibc deluxe album/whatever
• 1 x the massive shaun diviney poster from the planets ep
• 1 x rolling stone magazine with stack on the cover
• 3 x A4 poster of amy meredith, the never ever, for our hero
• 1 x for our hero poster. about four A4 pages size

all in really good condition; half of them have never been stuck to anything yet and a few of them have the corners sticky-taped so they don’t rip.

i’m not sure if i’m giving this away because i don’t know if enough people are interested so like/reblog/send me a message/whatever and if there are at least 15 people interested i’ll choose a random winner.

also you don’t have to be following me but i can only mail within australia. sorry international followers (i do appreciate you guys olot ♥)

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disloyalorderof:

*******HERE’S A MASSIVE GIVEAWAY*******:

So basically I’ve put together a bunch of band stuff I’ve collected throughout the years and decided to give all this stuff away. Most of this stuff either doesn’t fit me anymore, or I just don’t want anymore. So here’s what you’ll get if you win:

1. “I Don’t Wanna Dance” shirt from fall tour 2010 signed by Cassadee Pope
2. Hey Monday wristband from fall tour 2010
3. Mike Gentile from Hey Monday’s guitar pick
4. Boys Like Girls signed “Love Drunk” CD insert
5. Boys Like Girls summer tour 2009 hoodie (size S, but runs big)
6. White Boys Like Girls shirt from Hot Topic (size M)
7. Purple Boys Like Girls tour shirt (size M)
8. Heroes/Heroines year 2 shirt (size L)
9. Heroes/Heroines card & sticker
10. Boys Like Girls “L♥VE” wristband from 2009 summer tour
11. “Twitter Sucks” wristband from martinsays.com
12. To Write Love On Her Arms “We Will Be The Hopeful” shirt w/ original tag that has Jonathan Cook on it (size M/L)
13. a JAGK insert thing I had (lol irrelevant)
14. “Put Up Or Shut Up&So Wrong It’s Right&Nothing Personal&Dirty Work” Glamour Kills shirt (only available through Dirty Work pre order) (size L, but runs a bit small)
15. The Cab “Lady Luck EP”
16. The Ready Set “I’m Alive, I’m Dreaming” EP signed by Jordan’s guitar guy Deryck (he heart’s me/you)
17. Green Day’s “Dookie”
18. NeverShoutNever’s “The Summer EP”
19. Metro Station Hot Topic shirt (lol I know) (size M)
    
20. Blue Glamour Kill’s flying pig shirt signed by Tay Jardine from We Are The In Crowd (size L)
    
21. Glamour Kill’s “Originality Is Dead” shirt (size L)
22. Zack Merrick poster from September 2011 Alternative Press issue
23. Escape The Fate’s “This War Is Ours” shirt, held by the members of ETF (but washed since, sorry) (size L)
24. Signed Escape The Fate picture (signed by Craig Mabbitt, Max Green, and Robert Ortiz)
25. A bunch of old Zumiez stickers that I just don’t want anymore

So, there you have it. Here are the rules:

• You DO NOT have to be following me, but it wouldn’t hurt (disloyalorderof.tumblr.com)
• REBLOG as many times as you wish
• LIKE once

The winner will get everything listed above with no cost. I will ship anywhere (but you may have to give me time, cause I’m a broke teenager).

**Contest ends October 23rd**

so… GOOD LUCK!!! :)

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always-withlovekimberly:

DYING.

BRB DYING XD

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itsacomplimentiswear:

WWW.ITSACOMPLIMENTISWEAR.TUMBLR.COM WEEKLY BAND GIVEAWAY

This week is- ALL TIME LOW!

Prize Includes

• 1(M) short sleeve T-Shirt
• 1(M) 3/4th Sleeve T-Shirt
• 1 huge All Time Low Poster
• 1 Back issue of Rock Magazine with ATL gracing the cover

Rules

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prayforrevenge:

if you get this i love you

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wickedclothes:

Vampirism does not make stalking attractive.

No, it’s still really not okay to sneak in to a girl’s room and watch her while she sleeps without her knowledge. It’s really not. Go read some Harry Potter and learn some morals from there instead.

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